Here comes one of those nasty bottle necks of emotion and regret - a list of things which are currently vexing me:-
- All the things that you wish you could have said to someone when it mattered to them.
- Hatred of my poor judgement - then disgust at my innability to act in a timely fashion.
- Fear... fear of this whole damn shooting match when things are not going according to plan!
- There is a plan!!??!!
- Seeing my weaknesses in others around me and not being able to act upon this - do myself a favour,
- Anger, currently I am experiencing an awful amount to anger.
- My distrust, unforgiveness, and lack of humanity.
... it is odd that when - in a time of my life where i feel that I have made some progress and I am finally making good on the bullshit that I have been self feeding on... I get an attack of the "I'm worthless", again. I need a good nights sleep - I think.